February 6, 2014
These days I spend a lot of time writing.
Writing, re-writing, editing…and fretting.
Okay, I probably spend more time fretting then I want to admit.
I’m not a worrier – or fretter – by nature. However, during this season in my life, I am learning new things about myself. Some good, and others not so good.
I want my writing – my words – to count. I want to make a difference. I don’t want to waste your time reading something that doesn’t matter.
As I struggle to write these words I think back to some of the conversations I have had over the past few days. Good words spoken where I made a difference in others lives, and they made a difference in mine. How I wish I had recorded those conversations.
Yet today when I sit down to write none of those conversations really come to mind. My mind is blank. I feel cold and heartless without an intelligent, or humorous thought in sight.
If I was unsure about my passions, those cold, heartless feelings would scare me. I would lay down my pen and never write another word. I would get up from this chair and go play.
But, I do know what I am called to do. I look forward to the day when I share my passion – my heart – with more than just those people in my immediate circle. I know that day is not far off.
How do I know that? How do I know what my passion is? One answer could be that I have spent a lot of time doing things – activities if you will – which I have little to no passion. Can you relate?
A better answer is that I have spent a lot of time learning about me. I have read, journaled, sought counsel. I have taken profile and personality tests.I know what makes me tick. I know what ticks me off. I have done my homework. I know when to say “yes” and I’m not afraid to say “no,” even though when I get stuck I don’t always say “no” to the opportunity to escape for coffee. Call me?
I’m not finished yet. I will always be a work in progress. I will continue to refine to make a better me. I am not happy with status quo. Life is an adventure and I want to leave my mark.
How about you. Are you living your adventure? Or did your adventure get lost somewhere along the way? Share with us here you are. If things are good we want to celebrate with you. If things are not at their best, let us encourage you to do something different.